Sunday, November 04, 2007

Here I am xxxxxx

Every one must wonder where is Pearly ?
I haven't been very well still not there Yet !!
what happen ????
I don't know !
I just don't feel like doing anything right now .... I get so sad all the time cry for no reason get angry so easy ... get so lost and lonely even Derek noted and he bought me a Big Bunch of flower to cheer me up I am still so sad ....
Now Derek is away to Holland for work and here I am with my kids ... Guess I miss him now but in the other hand I don't cos I think is good for the both of us have a break and give each other some space.

I know right now I am suffer DEPRESSION ! I have been flight for this all the time is not nice to be a personal like this, give real shit time for people who love me and care about me .
so now I am here to flight it off ,I don't like to say out loud about this .....
But I need to get out my throat just hope would get over it ......



Everyone know me think I am a very happy go luck pearly and so help full all the time but I have a low time too when I am like this ,I still got to put my face up and smile and help people with their problem which I had enough on my plain.so God help me let all those people stay aways from me I don't want to be a babysit for people I don't want to know there can't get along with their boyfriend or their life with their EX just get on with life .......

I wish to go FAR FAR Away no men land just sit on the corner and chili not thinking of work, my kids ,my hubby , does there eat well does there need me ......I don't think there need me anyway .........
Life no life for me for a very long time, cos my life is surround with people with their SHIT

Yes! I know I am so shit ... I am not here for SORRY ... well lot of my friend and family will say that she is asking for attention or love . nnnno I am not, I am just here to scream it out of my chest OK ...... dun even think I need it .......... click this page off if you do ...

Well I am sick shit sorry ........got to go now life still need me to run around the home even DEREK Is not around I still got to do my skol run and BABYSIT for my friend at this time SUNDAY the 2 kids of her so she can go to work and I am here writing my sad DEPRESS story to tell the world ...... I AM SO FUCKING SICK AND SAD OF MY LIFE RIGHT NOW ....

17 comments:

Bento Pet said...

Dear Pearly, I'm so sorry you feel so down. *Hugs* *Hugs* *Hugs*

I tag you on my blog before I read your blog and found that you are feeling upset. If you want a 'distraction', please do it, other wise if you don't feel like doing it, don't worry!!

Take care and treat yourself with a nice hot drink. Put your legs in a tub of hot water with a few drops of your favorite scent. Sit back and relax!

PEARLY said...

hi dear Bento pet :
thank for drop by and lovely hug , yes a bit down at the moment .
will be up my feet soon .
thank so much again xxxx

Cat Cat said...

Sis Pearly,
I'm sorry to know you are feeling so down. Is there anything I can do?

Perhaps, you and Derek should go for a short vacation, ALONE - just two of you. Get your sister to help babysit your kids... Go away with Derek for a while. It does helps...

Dawn said...

Pearly sweetie, ohhhh, don't be sad. I am so sorry to hear you are feeling so down.

Pick up your cat, pat, cuddle her and it does relaxes you. Maybe go on a vacation by yourself might ease you stress.

You take care of yourself so you can be strong for your kids.

winniethepooh said...

Dearest Pearly, i know how u feel, sometimes i do feel like u too..just wish that the earth will eat me up so that i dont hv to think of anything and anyone. feel like so blue and down, but trust me, after a while things will get better. *hugs hugs hugs* think of things that makes u happy and do that..it might help. Cheer up ok

tell those people that u want to take a break, get them to get someone else to babysit their kids. When ure too nice, people take advantage of u..*pat pat pat and hugs hugs hugs* take good care ok!

janicepa said...

*hugzzz.. * you will be fine..

we all will go thru this.. every now and then.. as long as we can stand up again ..

ok.. love you !!

judy said...

i stumble onto your blog from reading another. I think you should seek professional help before your depression gets worst. the next time you feel bad, go out for a walk, it might help.

L'abeille said...

Hugs Pearly *HUGZ*

I'm sorry sorry to hear about your depression. How about going on a little vacation with hubby. I think it will help.

If you need someone to talk to, remember you'll always have my email address.

Take care,
L'abeille

~ Y@n Y@n ~ said...

so sorry to hear that my dear Pearly..... don't worry be happy...everything will be fine after u scream out....cheers!

aiyah nonya said...

Ah, Pearly,
I am sorry to hear this. I think you need to work of some steam. Or get some one to talk to. That will help.

Cheer up.

Hope you will be well soon. :)

PEARLY said...

To all my best family and my best freind :
I am so glad that when I am down all of you will be here to cheer me up and hug hug me .... I feel much more better now .... I will go and see my DR be4 it get worst thank Judy ,I know I can't let it get worst long time ago it get worst and turn my family up side down so today I will go and book anpointment to see wat wrong with Me ...
I hope to go away with hubby just the 2 of us but when come to babysit my kids, no one really wat to know which I had babysit for those so call friend couse there all say so sorry I got work to do so let forget it .
thank so much for those warm *hughug * I really so thankfull for it.
kisss to all my best ffamily and friend

Jacelyn Chew said...

hey friend, cheer up! I know how u feel, coz sometimes i'm like this too especially early this year when i've a problem relationship with hubby. everthing is ok for me now.

i hope u can cope with ur depressions soon. just remind urself, it is not good for ur health if u continue to be like this. ok?

million hugzzzzzz... :)

ilovepearly said...

I sorry to hear about what your going though. I been through depression and I know it's hard. Possibly you can seek professional advise by doctors and etc, they may help. Feeling alone on this isn't going to make thing easier. I really wish you well.

Aiyah Nonya said...

pearly

A warm and big hug for you.
Take care.

PEARLY said...

many thank to .....


JACELYN CHEW .. iLovePearly ....and my dear dear nonya ...
I will be fine I will try my Best to make myself cheer up and I promise you all xxxx HUG HUG

I Cook4Fun said...

Hope you are feeling much better today Pearly. Come here, let me give you a big hug :) Hope this is just a temporary thing and if not hope you go and see a doctor o.k.

PEARLY said...

my dear dear cook 4 fun :
thank so much your warm warm hug xxxxx
today I feel much better and I had book an Dr apointment but wouldn't get to see the DR until the 16 this is UK for me , but will try to book again in the morning see I can get in sooner

thank again not to worry I wil be fine .