I hate you all who hurt my family

It had been a long time I log into my blog , lot of thing happen up and down in my home , nearly pass 3 years bad thing still around me never goes away , I wonder when it going to go away .
Home  is no longer a home , sometime I ask myself where is my home ?? home is where my hubby and my kids , but after everything happen there not a home for me or for my kids , hate around the home angry around the home , no matter how much I try and put up all the shit , is still no peace , I wonder  when  I keep my word to god  to be good in life and help ppl and return is get hurt by everyone inclusive my very own family member is there call fair .
the only think I am trying to do is pray and hope one day it will be goes pass and I can pick up my life again .
sad to say ppl are selfish,  there can advised all kind but in real life no one can really understand wat is really ppl goes through and get hurt ,
the only personal can feel is the one who getting   pain , so much pain I face daily , I just got to keep telling myself is ok just be strong and hang on there becos I love him and my very own kids , one day it will be OK , instant of give up HOPE .
one thing piss me off the most is those ppl who so call * My family * who keep say to me , there care when thing get bad ,there so two face .
who can I trust ?
after all the bad thing happen to me I think I trust NO ONE .... people are so evil ,  there only nice when there want something from you , if there get wat there want there give you  2 finger ,well give no give there still give two finger to you so ...........
well ! that you can see wat the fuck I care any more , my mum always say to me, we must be nice to ppl , I think my mum is living in the roses life all the time . Ppl are evil, there  no nice ppl around especially those so call family , there are the worst one in life , there lie and make you do all kind of bad thing to get wat there want .
The only thing I love is my own family my kids and my hubby now all goes......... all becos  one of my side of family member make me to do something I really don't want to do,  when there goes down hell I give him a hand to bring him up , now My home goes down hill , everyone only turn around and say to me , well ..... wat can I say about there  is your life your choice , so is your problem not ours .
I hate them so much I so  wish  there all drop die but I  Know for sure ....  to those evil one * wat come around goes around , god got eyes to see ... now I suffer but one day is your time to get back wat YOU dick fucking shit . do to me and and my family  it will be double goes back to you and your family too .

All of you out there beware............

 I pray  to god ...... YOU all will get it back ....