MY life NOW ......

Try and try  hope and hope ......

now is time to tell myself is no use to work on my own cos 

it wouldn't work . when only one side trying hard.

1. The other party hate it so much ,time to let it go. 
2. no point to focus a relationship is not going to work!
3.  cos I don't know how I can make it work 
4. no meter how much I try it only back fire to me 
5. sad thing is I should know for long time it not going to work only I not wanted to face the true 
6. Now at this min my heart is so heavy  is like a person  who facing a die sentential  waiting for a trial to  be hang  !
7. you know you going to die but you don't know how to take it in , 
8. I rather to die and not have to face it all , but i can't do it or should say I don't dare or worry to leave my baby on it own .
9. As a wive, a mother of four , I love my family so much more then my life 

I will give my life to my hubby and any of my kids ,but I am not sure anyone of my family 

1. understand that is me , there all think I am so selfish to myself , which it never happen in me ,
2. I always put my hubby and my kids come first me the last , how can I make them see ????
3. that is how much I love them ?
4. I will still pray to god ,hope one day , god will send me an  Angel  help me to cross over ,
5. thing will  come toward me very  very soon !
6.  may god give me stranger and power to face it  whatever
7.  to come to me 
8. Let me be strong  and not weak !

I CAN DO IT !

I believe in you dear Buddha 

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