WHAT TO DO WITH HER ......................

THIS LITTLE girl ..... she use to be a
very good girl will do whatever we wish her to do for us ......
NOW
I DON'T THINK SOOOOOOO

I sometime wonder still wonder !!!!
wat have I done to myself but when I look at this little baby boy
my heart melt I do love him every bit same as all my other kiddo .

Since Aden born I haven't been out the house alone with him much .
also I just feel my life is no longer mine anymore
I don't have time for myself even eat ...
I use to bake and cook so much now I just so lazy and not bother at all
I will wait until the last min only go to the kitchen to do a fast and easy dish ,
also I get so angry all the time , life just no life I feel all the time , even when I wake up in the morning I so wish to go out to walk around the shop ....
but
when I think of all the trouble I got to do to pack baby thing milk car set etc ....
holy I rather to stay at home and not go anyway ,I get so angry when I see my house a big mess
after I just clear up in the afternoon be4 kids come back from skol ,just feel angry and tire all the time ,I sooo wish I don't have to go throughout all
Especially every night got to have a go at steph ...and angry with her in big time
she is getting to be a BITCH everyday ,
she will go on the net all the time and when we say something to her ,she will talk back that make me so cross ..... someday I just feel like walk out the house and never turn back , I am so useless can't control my kids wat the point to be here !

wHEN YOU THINK .....
All this time we look after them warm them love them ....
once there grown up there turn into a monter to us ... wat the point !

HELP .....
I so wish

I think I am too old to be a mum for a youmg baby
dont think I can cope it well !