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Every one must wonder where is Pearly ?I haven't been very well still not there Yet !!
what happen ????
I don't know !
I just don't feel like doing anything right now .... I get so sad all the time cry for no reason get angry so easy ... get so lost and lonely even Derek noted and he bought me a Big Bunch of flower to cheer me up I am still so sad ....
Now Derek is away to Holland for work and here I am with my kids ... Guess I miss him now but in the other hand I don't cos I think is good for the both of us have a break and give each other some space.
I know right now I am suffer DEPRESSION ! I have been flight for this all the time is not nice to be a personal like this, give real shit time for people who love me and care about me .
so now I am here to flight it off ,I don't like to say out loud about this .....
But I need to get out my throat just hope would get over it ......
Everyone know me think I am a very happy go luck pearly and so help full all the time but I have a low time too when I am like this ,I still got to put my face up and smile and help people with their problem which I had enough on my plain.so God help me let all those people stay aways from me I don't want to be a babysit for people I don't want to know there can't get along with their boyfriend or their life with their EX just get on with life .......I wish to go FAR FAR Away no men land just sit on the corner and chili not thinking of work, my kids ,my hubby , does there eat well does there need me ......I don't think there need me anyway .........
Life no life for me for a very long time, cos my life is surround with people with their SHIT
Yes! I know I am so shit ... I am not here for SORRY ... well lot of my friend and family will say that she is asking for attention or love . nnnno I am not, I am just here to scream it out of my chest OK ...... dun even think I need it .......... click this page off if you do ...
Well I am sick shit sorry ........got to go now life still need me to run around the home even DEREK Is not around I still got to do my skol run and BABYSIT for my friend at this time SUNDAY the 2 kids of her so she can go to work and I am here writing my sad DEPRESS story to tell the world ...... I AM SO FUCKING SICK AND SAD OF MY LIFE RIGHT NOW ....
